In May I began my dream job. I spent the month student teaching at a high school of eight students. Four of them graduated at the end of the month. At best, we hoped for an enrollment of 5 or 6 for fall. Lately it looked like we were only going to have 3 or 4, weird, but still cool. Today I found out that one student is going to juvenille detention, one has decided to try public school again, and one has to go to a public school or she can't get her driver's licence. That leaves me with MAYBE two students, maybe none. So basically, at the end of August I don't really have a job anymore, let alone the job I've been looking forward to and heavily preparing for all summer.
Brandon thinks I should just stay on as a part-time preschool teacher and part-time tutor, much like I've been doing all summer. I really had my heart set on working with teenagers next year, but it's probably too late for me to do that for a different private school or any of the public schools. I don't even have my temporary teaching certificate yet cause I didn't need it for this school. I'm bummed. Another possibility is advertising as a private tutor. I could work 8-12 hours a week from home at $20+ an hour doing that, IF I could find enough students. Two of my principal's daughters do that and they get plenty of work. I like that idea, only I wish I could work daytime hours and not afterschool hours. Oh well, I have a lot to think about.
My boss was really sweet and encouraging. She also gave me one of the greatest compliments. She said she interviews a lot of people, they often know more about teaching and education than I do, they know lots about english and reading and writing. But she said nobody she's ever talked to knew books like I do. She loves that I have such a broad knowledge of books and could talk about so many specific books in such detail. She was very complimentary. She loves my enthusiasm for teaching and learning and reading and kids. It made me feel good. It made me feel marketable. She said I am professional and personable and made me feel reassured about my ability to teach.
Anyway, I'll keep you all updated as I figure things out. I'm feeling frustrated by my inability to be better housekeeper, scrapbooker, cook, reader, etc. I have no motivation as of late. All I want to do is sit in front of the TV and yet, I don't really want to do that. I want more.